We’re half way there!

I know it’s been a little while since I have written a blog post, but last week was crazy busy! From being pregnant (that’s an excuse right?) work, to a major school project due, to seeing Justin Timberlake twice (yes, twice!) and going to Disney this weekend with Rick’s family I just didn’t have the time. Sorry! I am now here to update you. 🙂

You read the title correctly. I am 20 weeks (5 months) pregnant today! Just 20 more weeks to go. Here is what has happened up until now.

  • I feel normal again! Well, as normal as you can feel while pregnant. At 16 weeks my all day sickness went away. I still have short moments and I am not 100%, but wow, what a difference! I now feel like I can live and enjoy my life. Cheers to the light at the end of the tunnel.
  • I felt my little one’s first kicks at 17 weeks! It’s an amazing and miraculous feeling. To know I am growing this child inside of me is nuts. Every milestone is so beautiful. He has started kicking way more since then, and loves when I play him classical music.
  • My belly has grown! I woke up last Monday morning looking down at a belly. I have no idea where it came from but I guess I just popped, as they say. I know I may still be small and have a LONG ways to go, but I am happy seeing growth. I love baby bumps.
  • We have a name! Rick won. Ricardo William Vazquez Jr. The fight was just no longer worth it to me, especially with how much he loved his name and carrying it on and with how I was not in love with any boy name. Here is the catch though! We, and everyone else please, will be calling him Liam (short for William). I can definitely live with that nickname, and I am so happy to call him and tell other’s his name. My little Liam<3

20 week baby bump:

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It’s a boy!

Last Thursday I went to the doctor with Rick, his mom, and my mom for my anatomy scan. It was the day we had all been waiting for. We were so anxious to finally know if our little one was a boy or a girl.

When Rick and I first found out we were expecting, we knew we wanted a boy. We had always said we wanted a boy first. Then my morning sickness came, and my face started breaking out, and all I wanted to eat were sweets, and I had gotten wider, (every wives tale that points to a girl) etc. We also felt everyone around us already had boys. It was time for girls to start coming into this world. I know, I know, we are so silly. So as I began to think more and more we were having a girl, I fell in love with the idea. Most of our friends and family thought we were having a girl as well. It made me so excited! I went from for sure not wanting a girl to now convinced it was a girl. This was a good thing though, because now no matter what I had I didn’t have the fear of being disappointed (I have heard of it happening to people).

We went into my doctor’s appointment so anxious and to our surprise, it’s a boy! We all cheered and it was an uxexplainable beautiful moment. We were so happy! Just what we originally wanted. We started thinking of all the positives and just fell more in love with our little one. We told our family, but we had to hold in this information until Saturday for out gender reveal party for our friends.

Saturday came and we were so excited. My friends took their votes as they anxiously waited. Rick and I had decided to do something a little different. Most people have balloons in a box. We had silly string! Once everyone arrived at my house, we went to my backyard as I handed everyone a can. We counted down until everyone sprayed us with blue silly string! It was a fun, messy, and silly ‘ol time! Everyone was so happy, and some people so shocked (as we were).

I’ve been on cloud nine and just feeling so loving these last few days. All I can think about is my son. Yes, my son. We have a nursery theme picked out and we have already started the clothes shopping. All I want to do is go down the baby boy isle and buy buy buy! Our next milestone will be a name, but thats a whole other post for a whole other time (when we actually decide on one).

Here are some sonogram pictures and pictures from our gender reveal party.

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Tummy Talks

Today I am 16 weeks (4 months)! The first trimester felt very long and never-ending. Now I feel as if time is just passing by. It is a pretty bitter-sweet feeling. I can’t wait for each milestone and to meet my baby, but I still want to soak in and treasure every moment. 

I was so anxious for this day as my baby can begin to hear me. How cool and amazing and wonderful is that?! As Rick &I woke up today it seems we had the same agenda. Right before leaving work, he gets right on my tummy and tells the baby “I have to go to work now, but I love you. I’m your daddy!” and gives it a few kisses good-bye. My heart melted. So touching. I still had 45 minutes until I had to get up and get ready for work. During this time I usually just go back to sleep. This morning I just couldn’t. I decided to talk to my baby. I just held my belly and shared my heart; my heart for him or her. I just couldn’t stop telling the baby how happy I was to have him or her and that I love him or her. My life is all about him or her.

For Christmas Rick got me bellybuds. It is a sound system for your tummy. The speakers stick to your tummy, leaving your hands free while your baby enjoys some music. With that, I  played my baby’s first song. I couldn’t decide between my two faves; Justin Timberlake or Taylor Swift. Ha! I went with Taylor Swift’s “Never Grow Up”. It felt appropriate. With the bellybuds, Rick gave me three baby einstein classical CDs. I’ll probably start using those soon. 

Little things like this get me excited these days, as silly as it may seem to others.

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Looking ahead…

My next milestone? GENDER!!! I can’t wait to finally call the baby either him or her, or better yet, by his or her name! Stay tuned!

 

808 & Heartbreaks

or doctor & heartbeats. I’m no Kanye!

I just came back from one of my OB appointments on cloud nine, as I always do. I have been incredibly blessed with a perfectly healthy baby. At each visit I have been able to hear the heartbeat or see my baby via ultrasound. Nothing can make me happier these days. Today I heard the heartbeat for the second time. It just doesn’t get old! I recorded it on my phone since Rick has yet to hear it. I wish I could post it on here. If you follow me on Instagram or are my friend on Facebook you can view it there.

I am also so blessed to have an incredible doctor.  Dr. Johnson is so caring and helpful. I’ve heard horror stories of doctors who don’t care and just want to rush you out of the room. This is not the case for me. She reviews everything with me, ask how I am feeling, and gives me plenty of time to ask questions or just talk. She also gives me options and passes no judgement! Here is a quick example. Today I was offered the flu shot. There was no rush or pressure. I decided that I wanted to do my research before I rush into anything. Guess what? She was perfectly fine with it! She didn’t use her “doctor powers and wisdom” to convince me or force me otherwise. She also didn’t make me feel stupid for being hesitate. Side note: I have never been the type to reject modern medicines. In fact I have always been vocal about vaccines and such, but it seems the mommy in me is already coming out. I want to know what I am doing before I do it and I want what I feel is best me for and my family.

My advice is to find a doctor/midwife that listens and cares. It’s your baby and your body. It doesn’t have to be a terrible experience. You don’t have to dread going to the doctor or be forced into things you don’t want to do. You want to feel comfortable in one of the most crucial times of your life. I think you should feel in control. You’re not diseased, you’re pregnant! It’s a beautiful thing. 🙂

 

First Trimester Recap

Today I am 14 weeks, which means I have officially entered into the second trimester. Woohoo! I am one-third of the way there to see and hold my baby. I would like to reflect back on my first trimester and throw the deuces up (that means peace out!). Now remember, this is just my story and my journey. Don’t let it scare you.

From the day I found out I was pregnant I have been nothing but sick. The term morning sickness is so misguiding. It really should be called all day sickness, at least for me. Before I was 9 weeks I wasn’t so bad. In fact after 9 weeks I would look back into earlier in my pregnancy and say “If I can just go back to those days, I would be eternally grateful”. I was not ready for all the of the nausea, dehydration, vomiting, constipation, gas, headaches, dizziness, no appetite, etc. Most pregnancy stories I had heard (which were not many) were stories of “I never threw up” or “I was only a little sick” or “I’m only sick during this time of the day or if I don’t eat”. I was so envious of these people. I was sick and miserable and pretty much bed ridden. Looking back in the last 14 weeks I have only gone out twice! Pile all of this on top of crazy hormones. I was depressed. Literally.

That is very hard for me to admit. I always thought a women should enjoy her pregnancy and be so grateful. I think those are two separate issues that I now understand. You can not enjoy your pregnancy and still be so incredibly grateful and happy for your little one. That was the limbo I was in. I was still depressed. I saw no end in sight, and I just wanted to feel better and be a better wife. This was the last few months of us being alone anyhow. I’ve been so incredible lucky of how supportive, loving, caring, and just all around their for me Rick has been. I don’t know how I would have gone through this pregnancy alone. Single mothers, I salute you, and I don’t even have the baby yet!

12 weeks came and everyone said I’d feel better. That didn’t happen. That especially made me realize every pregnancy is different. So again, don’t let me story scare you. I really hope the best to all preggers out there! I am now in my second trimester, and this is my next shadow of hope. I am crossing my fingers to magically feel better and enjoy the best three months of pregnancy, so they say. If not, then maybe I am one of the unlucky few who remains sick throughout their entire pregnancy. As I always say to Rick and I’ve stated in my blog “Nothing comes easy for me. My life is just too interesting”. Ha!

On a lighter and brighter note, I have been incredibly blessed that my baby has been perfectly healthy. That goes above and beyond any bad or sick day. I also felt flutters for the first time at week 13! I am dying to feel them again. I love my little baby so much and I can’t wait for whats to come this trimester; a growing belly, feeling my baby, talking and playing music for my baby, and to know the gender.

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Life is What Happens To You While You’re Busy Making Other Plans

This isn’t your typical “I was late and nausoues so I peed on a stick and we celebrated” pregnancy story. My life isn’t that simple, or uneventful.

I had been having awful stomach pains for some time. I dismissed them, thinking my period was coming any day now, until one  Sunday night the pain just got so intense that I knew something was wrong. The very next day Rick took me to urgent care. After several questionnaires and examinations, the doctor returns to my little room to literally just say “Ummm, you’re pregnant and need to go to the hospital. Do you need an ambulance to take you?”

My jaw dropped. Rick &I looked at each other shocked. That lasted for a millisecond as the next immediate thought was is my baby okay? We immediately got up, walked to our car and drove to the hospital. We loved this baby so much already as all we could talk about was this little being. I kept saying the baby better be okay. I don’t even know what I meant by that. Who was going to pay if the baby wasn’t?

We get to the ER as I am quickly admitted, IV and everything. After all of their testing they confirm the baby was just fine and sent me home with antibiotics and told me to rest. What started as a painful and scary day, turned into a beautiful blessing in disguise.

As you might have discovered while reading, this baby wasn’t planned. I can speak about this honestly because I believe it makes my story and this process a little more amazing. Rick and I thought we would be that couple that unsuccessfully tried for years to get pregnant with my medical history. Instead, we were that couple that got a baby without trying! We are so blessed and don’t take this for granted for not one second. We appreciate and love our baby so much. This baby is the best surprise we have ever been given.

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We are going to be a family of THREE!

Hi everyone! I know, I know. Where have I been!? Well, I’m here now!

Honestly, I stopped the blog because I just felt in over my head. Who the hell am I to give marital advice or judge others because they don’t do marriage exactly like I do? The answer is I am nobody. I’ve done a lot of self-reflection and I’ve grown a lot in this short break. The vibe of the blog is going to change completely because…

I’M PREGNANT!

Another thing to feel in over my head about, but I felt this was a good enough reason to come back.  This time around I just want to blog about how I feel and my experiences and not act like I have a solution to everything. I just want this to be fun and make a few people say aww!

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Show Me How To Fight For Now

I am heavily moved and inspired by music. Mirrors by Justin Timberlake is one of those songs that get me every time. Before I speak my mind, check out the music video and lyrics below if you haven’t already.

Verse 1

Aren’t you somethin’ to admire
Cause your shine is somethin’ like a mirror
And I can’t help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I’m always
Parallel on the other side

Pre-Chorus

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there’s no place we couldn’t go
Just put your hand on the glass
I’m here tryin’ to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

Chorus

I don’t wanna lose you now
I’m lookin’ right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I’ll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin’ back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It’s like you’re my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn’t get any bigger
With anyone else beside me
And now it’s clear as this promise
That we’re making
Two reflections into one
Cause it’s like you’re my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Verse 2

Aren’t you somethin’, an original
Cause it doesn’t seem really as simple
And I can’t help but stare, cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can’t ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I
Would look at us all the time

Pre-Chorus

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Bridge

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow’s a mystery
I can see you lookin’ back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

Chorus

You are, you are the love of my life [x10]

Baby, you’re the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it’s already gone
And I can’t wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life [x8]

Girl you’re my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You’re my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

You are, you are the love of my life [x16]

This is an overall amazing song. Amazing melody and amazing lyrics. I can really relate to this song to my relationship with Rick. I could pick apart each lyric in this song and speak about it, but I won’t do that. This song is about being in love and staying in love, even if it isn’t easy. The line that resonates with me the most at this moment is show me how to fight for now.

Love isn’t always easy. It isn’t always romantic dates, non-stop laughter, great vacations, and overall good times. As the video displays, there are great times as well as heartbreaking moments. So what do you do during the hurt, anger, and disappointments. Fight. No, not the kicking and screaming type of fighting. Fight for now.

Take each day at a time, and fight for your love. Remember the good times and always cherish what you have. Work on your problems, makes compromises, and most importantly, fight together.

Rick is not always at his best, and neither am I. At those moments when I am weak, I need someone to show me how to fight for now. You fight against anger. You fight against abandonment. You fight for what is good in your life, your other half.

That is what I am currently learning in the short almost 5 months we have been married. I don’t wanna lose Rick and he doesn’t want to lose me despite hardships. What we have isn’t perfect, but I can say we have amazing chemistry which is evident to all who know us (though it goes way beyond that) and we love each other more than anything in the world. It’s worth it to fight for now.

Introducing Hennessy!

No, not the liquor. The dog! Here’s the story…

This is Bella.

IMG_2583-2I got her almost four years ago for my birthday. Rick found her for me. When I brought her home my family immediately feel in love with her. When I got married, she came with me. Rick was extremely happy, but my family would surely miss her. And they did. My mom really wanted her to stay. She missed her so much she wanted a new doggy for her house.

This is Hennessy.

IMG_2631-2Or Henny for short. He is three years old and he needed a home. My mom’s favorite dog has always been a Yorkie. This was the perfect opportunity for my mom to get her favorite dog to keep her company AND to do a good deed and save this doggy. He’s a crazy, but a good boy.

I met him yesterday, and I must say my mom is so happy! Since I left home, my mom has really been missing me and Bella. When I saw how excited she was and how much she loved Henny already, I felt at peace. I was happy seeing my mom happy. Now she has a little friend to “replace” us. It’ll never be an amazing Jas & Bella combo, but it gets the job done.

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Moral of the story: When you move away, get your family a dog. Just kidding! …but seriously. If it works! Haha!

P.S. Bella does not like dogs, unless it’s little and a boy. Their play date went better than expected. She likes him. 🙂

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Our Date At The Zoo

Rick & I had a completely free weekend for the first time in 2013! By completely free I mean we had a ton of work/school work, Rick had a diaper party Saturday morning, and we had church Sunday morning, and client come over to do their taxes. This is what completely free means to us these days. We still managed to find a lot of time to be together, a lot more than lately. We made sure to stick together while we worked and took little silly breaks here and there. One of our “breaks” was a couple hours at Zoo Miami.

Rick had text me this week during one of his crazy days at work saying he wanted to take me to the zoo! I had been dying to go since we first got together so he found a great way to make up for our crazy schedules. It was perfect zoo weather; not hot at all! It was a cool breezy day. This is as rare as Hailey’s Comet in Miami! I got to see all of the animals, which I love! I am not a tree hunger, but it really makes me sit back and think how great of a Maker my God is. They are also cool, funny, and some are kind and fluffy.

My favorite part? We got to interact and feed several giraffes! I was quite scared at first, but once I got use to their tongues I had a blast! I didn’t want to leave them.

Here are some pictures of us feeding the giraffes and my favorite unedited pictures of some of the animals. I think I am getting a bit better at working my camera. 😉

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