Liberate is a Christian conference done once a year at Coral Ridge Presbyterian Church. Rick and I went again this year. You can find my post about last year’s conference by clicking here. If I am being honest, I enjoyed last year’s better, but this is not to take anything away from this year’s. Last year’s might mean more to me because it was my first time and it was a huge awakening. This year, though, was a grand reminder I needed.
It was all about grace, as always, as it always should be. Who can get tired of that message when you know how much of a sinner you are and how much God loves you despite it. That’s an amazing grace!
I’m not going to go into too much detail of the conference per-say, but I will relate it and apply it to my personal life. I hope this helps you just as much.
I we have been going through what many would call a “dry season”. I say we not to speak on Rick’s behalf, but when I go through something, he goes through it as well. Whether good or bad, that’s marriage. We just got married a few months ago, Rick works like crazy at his job and with his own personal company (it’s tax season), I’m going to school full-time, our weekends have been booked this entire year thus far, and in the midst of that we try to find time to be together. We are just crazy busy. That’s a good enough excuse, right? Wrong.
I have become the idol of my heart. No, not Rick my idol, but Jas has become the idol of Jas. Self-obsorbed in my feelings, my wants, my needs, and what Rick needs to do in order to be a good husband and satisfy me. ME! ME! ME! This is where grace comes in.
Is my behavior acceptable. No, it’s not. Does God love me any less for it? No, He does not. That’s grace. He came to die to set me free. To set me free of needing to be accepted, of needing things done my way, of needing to be in control. He came to take my place, because there was no way I could live the life and death that Jesus did. That’s grace, and through that grace I need no longer worry. The death on the cross is the completed work of Christ on my behalf. COMPLETED! It covers past, present, and future sins. He died for this very moment. My moment of selfishness and idolatry.
That is the never-old, never-not-needed message of the gospel that I heard throughout this weekend. When I sin His grace goes further. Though I’ve known this for quite some time now, it’s a whole other challenge to believe it and having faith in this.
This experience will past and my high will die, but His word remains forever. As I try to rest on that, I’ll fail at it daily. It’ll be okay though. I can dust myself off knowing His grace has set me free.